Will It Ever Go Away?

Will it ever go away? Will this pain ever just leave me the hell alone? Can I just be done with ALL of this! I am so beyond sick of feeling so down and worthless. I miss you. I can't stand this. This is like living in hell. I feel like i'm living dead. Everything goes wrong. My heart aches everyday. No one gets it. I get called these names from people who don't even effing talk to me. I am so sick of what life is throwing at me. I'm not a happy person anymore. I miss you so much, it's becoming unbearable to be honest! What can I do to get through this? What have I been doing? Oh that's right nothing. Just taking the pain. Well how much more can a person take. Some days I feel so alone. I wish we could still be AT LEAST friends! You know hang out, and talk. But not even that. and I know that wouldn't be the best choice because it'd just hurt me more. Maybe, I just need to forget. Forget EVERYTHING. Move on. Say goodbye. Quit crying for the same damn 'ol reason! Once you cry. You should never cry again for the same reason. Well i've probably cried over this, over 10 times. Nothing stops. I've been so bitchy lately. I'm not happy. I don't know what would make me happy again. Oh that's right being your girl. But that won't happen. and I don't even think that'd work. I'm trying to help myself out here, but I'm failing. I don't see anymore hope. The memories won't quit playing in my head like a movie. JUST STOP! Nothing helps anymore. I don't know when the pain will go away. When everything will be alright again. But it better be soon, before i'm completely shattered!